weary of me

im afraid of myself, heh why?

well last night, took this quiz on facebook,"Could you Kill someone?" quiz and the result is It happens, you could kill.  

hah, i know what you are thingking right now, that i think im all that, and stuff kan?

well, =)

u dont know how scary i can get.

when i think about it, these kill urges are wayy backkk into time, i mean, i have always wondered, fantasized about it. yup always did, always do i suppose, well its like those times when u have nothing to do and just stares blank and start to day dream, and my day dream was to kill, well it doesn't come around now days, probably because im occupied with exams and school and such. but when i think about it, its pretty scary.

i almost kill someone once, if i dont think throughly, i might push her down the staircase, sheesh, okee, writing this gives me the goosebumps.

well im not afraid now, since im busy and all that, but what about after SPM? will it come again? no idea, hope not, i dont want to be jason in friday the 13th, sheeshh.

note to self: exam is in tow weeks, study! spm is roughly in 193 days.

ps: JVAA

Solar car much?

okee here i am, 1 am in the morning, struggling to finish the gid dammed power point presentation for tomorrow, SOLAR CAR COMPETITION. seriously, i hope we dont win, i dont to get through this shit again, SERIOUSLY. da la penat kot buat bende alah nieh urgh

out

new song

gay servey

Have you ever thought about getting your lip pierced?
duuh~ totally

Does a kiss make you feel better?
wayyy better baby =)


Have you ever passed out on the bathroom floor?
my dick has

Do you start the water before you get in the shower or when you get in?
before, its a no no cold water at 6 in the morning biatch

What did you do today?
chivas kot

Have you ever brushed your teeth while in the shower?
x, aku gosok bontot aku


Have you had more than 3 boyfriends/​girlfriends at the same time?
what am i? attention whore?

Have you ever thought about your death?
err, fuck u?

Ever been in love?
=(

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
=((

What is your favorite sport?
swimming!


What color is your shower curtain?
bare, its nude

Have you ever had stitches?
eww no

Do you know how to use chop sticks?
yup2


Lyrics stuck in your head?
bom bom pow?

Do you like the Red Sox or Yankeess?
none

What are you doing tomorrow?
hungover


Who was the last person you couldn't take your eyes off of?
ouh...

Have you ever given money to a homeless person?
yeap

Have you ever run over an animal?
nope

What is your favorite cereal?
urgh, omg i forgot, its in french!

Have you ever had an Oreo with peanut butter?
eww dude, wtf?

What are you doing right at this moment?
trying to stay sobber

Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
yea, that would be hot

Where's your favorite place to be?
where kakak is

What's your favorite song?
the penis song, OST of... wait, what is that movie again?

Are you more of a coffee or alcohol drinker?
alcohol

Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?

wat?

Have you ever been skinny dipping?
heh

Do you dream in black and white?
i dont remmeberr

Do you talk in your sleep?
i screamed

Do you snore?
yes sir

Funniest thing you heard all day?
steven lnych - priest

Have you ever gotten a mosquito bite on your face?
hah, yea

What are you afraid of?
SPM

who to tag?

kakak =)

26/4 update!

aha yes people, im back, well, things have been pretty smooth i guess,

well on friday, i ponteng sembahyang, well i know, i just need a break thats all, so i went to McD and guess who i kene kantoi! P.Jaspal! hahaha epic emberrassment!

well, an hour ago, saturday, we had this fucking science fair, lol, and well i took some pictures and videos,

well im going to post the video later on, kene upload on youtube dulu kot wey.

URGH blogger punyer picture uploader cam sial, will update later*

Skipping school

woohoooO!!! sakit tekak, so i decided to skip school, heeee

so i was reallyyy bored and didnt knw what to do, keep staring at my math book for like 10 minutes, and thinking whether to study or not,  since mid term is just weeks away.

so i thought to myself, heh, lets cam whoring with dina( my niece) and here are the retard pictures!

we even did some recording! haha tho its going to be embarrassing so im not going to upload it, heh =)

heh, going back to studying, adios.

update 21/4?

well, nothing interesting happened recently, 

tho i noticed that im more tired than usual, probably its becasue of the 

dateline of solarcar,

dateline of science fair,

and the overlapping homeworks, yeah i know im lazy but you cant do shit now can you?

anyway, probably going to book fair this wednesday, we'll see

facial...

my mum persuaded me to do facial, which is the last thing i want to do since it hurts like retarded fuck, if u have pimples, seriously, it was hell.

so i went to this beauty saloon and did facial, but, they said i have sinus,which i was like, wtf? sinus? and went thru sinus treatment as well, well, since the covered my eyes with clothing, or whatever that was, i cant see what they did to me, but they lit up something, like a candle or something similar, but then again, since my eyes were covered, it could be a different thing. it doesnt hurt tho, except when the smokes went into my nasal cavity, it was as if someone poke a needle up in my nose.

when that was done, they steamed my face, it was well, say misty. here is when the real nightmare begins, they, suck up my face with some sort of vacuum, or at least it felt like it. That didnt hurt that much tho, until they were trying to 'keluarkan jerawat' i swear to god, if i were a little boy, i would piss in my pants, she warned me it would be painful, but i cant clearly remember the pain of the previous facial, so i thought to myself, it couldnt be that bad, and she squeezed my pimples with something needle like, and it lasted for 10 minutes, and everytime she squeezed, i constantly remind myself to 'kill' the nerves, meaning that, concentrating something in my mind, and ignore the rest, boy it worked alright, for 5 seconds, and PAP the excruciating pain comes again.

after that 'experiences for goodness' passed, i thought the worst was over, was i wrong or wat, she said:

"nie sakit skit eh, untuk matikan jerawat tuh"

i reminded myself, well she said 'skit' it wouldn't be that bad,

and she apply it on my face,

I WAS STUNNED, it was as if someone poured acid on my face, and tcursed, quite a lot, and she asked me to stop, because she said she felt the pain too, and i laughed, like the satanic laughed, shit that, and it was over, fuhh, but she promised me it wouldn't be this bad the next time, AND I HOLD TO HER WORDS, 30 more days to the next appointment, ouch?

PS: i know i write like a 12 year old, shut up.

stupidity is something i cant take on

on daily basis, i meet idiots, like every single day,

they tend to be fucking annoying, asking stupid questions and such, but they are not stupid tho, i mean they can do add math, but sometimes, they seem to behaving like a person with IQ lower than 10. WHY DO YOU HAVE TO ASK THE SAME QUESTION AGAIN AND AGAIN? YOU RETARDED FUCK!

anyway, not only that, there are some people who are like leeches, i mean, they used me for something, and when the next time we meet up, they acted as if we have never talked before, what is up with that? toothache? seriously, i feel like slapping you across the block at that moment.

there are even some that took off, ignoring me like fuck, intentionally go back home instead of waiting the van with me, in aim to avoid me at all cost? after what i have put up for you? of all the sacrifice? this is how you repay me? well, guess what, fuck off, wei, pindah skola la klau ko x nak tgk muke aku sangat, da la penakut, aku tanyer lari, aku tanyer lari, bodoh, stupid, UGH SICKENING!

i mean seriously, u got problems with me, talk to me, dont be a fucking coward running away all the time, shit that, i pity your kid in the future, that is if you are fertile enough since ur a fucking fuck coward, seriously FUCK YOU.

as well as those fucking religious wanabee people in school, i mean c'mon, why do you have to let everybody know how many times you pray to god, its pathehic, and when i cursed, u gave me that, 'omg ur going to hell'look, what is up with that?, well guess what? i rather got to hell than being with a stuck up like you, seriously, what are your purposes anyway? what kind of MORON WHO BRAGGED HOW MANY TIMES HE PRAYS TO GOD? I MEAN, WHY BRAGGED??? i mean, its good la, but WHY DO YOU HAVE TO LET EVERYONE KNOWS? ATTENTION WHORE MUCH?

ugh ugh fuck that, sorry but i have to say, i hate teachers who would scold the students if they don't understand and ask over and over again, IT IS YOUR FUCKING JOB! STUPID!

thank god my teachers are not like that, well, maybe Zarinawati, but she would do it in a very funny way, not insulting, lol. i mean seriously, when she wants people to shut they mouth, she'd say "DIAMLAH! AKU KASI PENAMPAR KANG!" hhahahahhaha shit, this reminds me of my sister, kiki ; kakak, dont be a teacher, it would be a disaster!.

heh, im tired of typing already, well ,i still need that fucking 5k! umar babi x nak kasi aku! ugh,

and my homework is piling up and more and more and more.

ouhouh, i got school tomorrow! and after that, going to salon in SOGO, hair treatment, =)

I NEED 5K!

omg 

omg 

omg

omg

omg

im begging you!

pls 

pls 

pls

 i need the fucking money!

just 5000, thats it, just that amout only! i need it! omg

i need these things:

bongo vuitton, US 1580.00

cabas naxis vuitton, 2580.00 US dollar.

   speedy automatic choronography smart grey, US$ 6150.00

okee okee i know i must stop now, shit! i want them

but they cost more that 5000! urgh!

tired

school days are too tiring for me, i mean seriously, well mostly cause of lack of sleep. online too much. wat can i say? internet is part of my 'must do on daily basis' thingy

having my solar car competition tomorrow, hope the fucking cunt moves,or i'm gonna break it into pieces and shove it into someone's anus.

ugh,

well today i was moderately happy? hahah how do you explain that? heh idk, hacing some emotional crisis, i know i know nothing new, ugh. fuck off dow.

i love you!

heee, well, i removed my previous song, and im gonna post this instead, plain white-T 1234

well, kakak, too bad u don't have any speakers, go get one!

hee, while playing this song, my budgies( little parrots) bunbun and chichi, are having sex, screeching and screaming, lol

i love today, i love it,

if u are wondering what makes me so happy, well, it is for me to keep =)

something i came acrossed on youtube

"Young people, rejoice in your youth. Fall hopelessly in love with someone, act silly and let nature take it's course. Remember also, love is 100 times better than sex and sex is amazing. Girls - thank God for boys, and boys - thank God for girls. You are only young once - enjoy it and don't let the old miserable crowd put you down. I'm 57 and I'm telling you go out and fall in love today - there is nothing like it!"

what if im gay? nak romen ngan saper? bodoh

attention people, i dun give shits anymore

hey, u there, yeah, stop doing blowjob to your father and listen to me will yea?

heeee, too bad, bapak ko botak dan bodoh!

fuck u!

celine dion sucks, nothing is perfect if its too good, and shes way too good!

and yes in being random, so wat? ko anak haram kot! eeee ANAK HARAM!

heh, letting some steam off.

i might just lost all of the respects u had for me,

well GUESS WAT?

i dun care =)

good day everybody

be still

Darling don't just go quite yet. I think you look so pretty. There's not much I wouldn't do to keep you here beside me. I know you have your dreams and I don't want to take them from you. It makes you want to scream and I'm not helping when I hold you. But I need to say that I love you. And that I always will. I need to lay and behold you. So darling won't you be still. Take this token of my praise and hide it deep within you. Save it for the rainy days and I'll be thinking of you.

lyrics from Pomplamoose, check them out on youtube.