this is me

Description of your personality profile

You have a moderate need for image, power and control. You have no preference to lead or take charge of things. You set moderate standards for yourself and others to accomplish your goals. You strike a balance between talking and listening when you express your opinions. You have no wish to control people and situations. Likewise you do not like other to push and put pressure on you.  You have a fairly low need for love, belongingness, care and affiliation. You are rather aloof and often tend to avoid social interactions with others. You prefer to work alone than in groups. You seldom share your experiences and interests with others. You prefer privacy. You like more space and time for yourself
You have a fairly low need for safety order, system and protection. You prefer to be free to run your life. You rarely plan for your future. You tend to do things spontaneously and take things as it comes. You are likely to resent criticism and advice. You do not like being controlled and often see rules and regulations as a barrier to your endeavor. You seldom show interest in insuring yourself. You are rather carefree, happy go lucky and generous. You are a fairly high risk taker. You often take chances in life. You prefer adventures in the pursuit of your life goals
You are quite achievement oriented. You tend to work hard to achieve your goals.You are reasonably responsible and committed to your work. Often you work long hours to get the job done. You are quite enthusiastic about what you are doing and are fairly motivated to give your best. You are quite keen to acquire new knowledge and skills and see learning as a life long process. You prefer to be competent and progress in your career. You tend to seek meanings in your life. You have a fairly high standard of ethics and moral conduct. You are quite reliable. Apparently others can trust you and depend on you to get the job done.  You have a high need for survival. You have a helicopter vision of your environment. You can see the forest and the trees. You are able to do an analysis of your environment and develop strategic plans to achieve your life goals. You are flexible and adaptable and are good at mobilizing resources in the environment to achieve your vision. Traits  Moderately expressive - Moderately assertive - Average self-confidence - Average in determination - Moderate will-power Analytical - Adaptable - Persuasive - Forecast - Convincing - Anticipate - Proactive Fairly Normal Personality Traits  Quite Mature – Quite Rational – Fairly Responsible – Fairly high Commitment – Quite Hardworking – Quite Enthusiastic – Often seek Self-improvement Quite individualistic – Fairly reserved – Has quite a shallow well for feelings – Prefer solitude – Quite impersonal – Rather aloof  Quite Adventurous – Fairly Spontaneous – Prefer Freedom – Rather Impulsive – Quite Forgetful – Seldom plan – Fairly High risk Characteristic  Set moderate goals - No preference to take the lead or to follow - Neither aggressive nor submissive - Can push and give in to others - Average concern for prestige and image - Moderately forceful and assertive – Average in ambition and determination Know how to mobilize support - Able to influence, persuade and convince others Alert and aware what is happening in the environmet - Able to spot opportunity and make use of it Attitude and Values  Quite Willing Work Hard – Fairly Enthusiastic About Their Work – Quite Responsible And Committed, Fairly Reliable And Trustworthy – Fairly Good Thinking Skills – Likely To Appreciate Other's Work – Often Look For Opportunity To Learn And Grow – Quite Energetic And Fast Pace – Quite Goal Oriented – Want To Accomplish Something In Life Prefer Freedom To Do What They Like – Likely To Experiment And Try Something New – Quite Spontaneous And Impulsive In Their Action – Quite Resentful Being Controlled, Monitored And Supervised - Prefer To Do Field Work - Prefer To Be Empowered To Do Things - Tendency To Be Disorganized And Forgetful – Quite A High Risk Taker – Likely To Take Things As It Comes – Rather Live From Day To Day – Quite Generous With Their Money Quite impersonal and withdrawn - Has a fairly shallow well for feelings - Quite reserved in giving their ideas - Often avoid crowds and social functions - Quite lacking in interpersonal sensitivity Strength Able to influence, persuade and convince people - Knows how to adapt and wrangle out of difficult situations - Be able to do in-depth analysis - Alert and well-informed of things in the environment - Opportunistic and strategic - Knows many ways of making use of opportunities and making things happen Reasonably Responsible And Committed To Produce Results – Quite Highly Energetic - Willing To Work Long Hours – Likely Take Initiative In Seeking Competencies – Fairly High Ethical And Moral Code Of Conduct – Always Want To Do Things Meaningfully To Make Things Better     Improvement need May get at people who play them out May become impatience to get things done fast - May get upset with slow people - May be provoked when others attack their weak points   You are quite lacking in social skills. You may need to make more friends who can contribute to your well being. You must learn how to work in groups and learn to cooperate and collaborate with others. You should interact with more people sharing your ideas and interests. You have to learn how to communicate your inner feelings and thoughts. You should show more care and concern for the well beings of others. You may have to learn to get along well with others    You should learn how to plan, organize and schedule your work activities. You need to develop your self discipline. Learn to follow rules, regulations and procedures. Try to work more systematically and methodically. You should also pay more attention to detail. You need to pay respect for safety and social order. You should to manage your time more effectively Work Interest  - Outdoors or field work  - Adventurous and thrilling work - Work requiring working alone - Work with little social interactions   - Work requiring analysis and strategic thinking - Problem-solving and decision-making work - Innovative work - Work dealing with concepts, theories and ideas - Work touching on improvement needs Career Fit Creative Arts - Design - Sculptors, Painters & Artists - Innovation - Scientist - Field Research Professional - Film Directors - Composers - Cartoonist - Advertising - Decoration Professional - Actors and actresses - Singers and Dancers   Business Management - Politician - Entrepreneur  - Language and Arts - Philosophy - Religious Studies - Laws - Logician Recommended Courses For Higher Education  Language & Liberal Arts - Literature - Philosophy - Geography - History - Mathematics - Science  Mass Communication - Journalism - Advertising - Anthropology - Biotechnology - Genetics - Molecular Biology - Biochemistry - Embryology - Cell Biology

i hate cold toilet seats

yes, tomorrow is the last day of exam! woohooo! tho there are rumors im cheating on the tests, wtf right? well whatever, IGNORE!

why?

well, 

mainly because, most probably im going to steve'oiake thissaturday night! woohooo!! and on monday, puff im off to london! yeay me! hahahah XD

so yeah, cant wait!

and i hate cold toilet seats, will be getting that a lot over there! 

and please dont request anything from me, my father gave me only 50 pound to spend, pfft, obviously im going to ask more, heee :D

ps: i wanna be rich

i told you my school sucks

i wanna movee goddamit, my mum wont let me, sheshh, doesnt she know how it sucks? of course she knows, lol,

huh i cant get MBS off my mind, ahhhh, sheshhh,

i wanna move

pray for me will you? :D

i miss MBS

i hate my current school, seriously, semua budak kampung2 and closed minded, well not all,  but i dare to say the majority, if ur offended, it means ur one of them kan?

i miss my old school, where nobody judge u for who ever u are, kaya ker, miskin ker, cacat ker, or what ever, we always have each other's back and i miss them all.

kat sini? semua cam sial back stabbers mulut cam jibai jakun. i mean, depan org, ouh buat muke baik cam sial, belakang kutuk2 like god, fuck off, aku pun dah jadi cam korang sikit, which i dont like one bit, fuck off la.

MBS i miss u, u and ur padang yg x boleh besar lagi, and kantin ouh my god, they have a lot of choices, but here? heh nvm.

and the community, arrghhh, da la dekat ngan time square, not only that ader monorail, ahh gi klcc senang sial, 

people i miss there :

all the prefects friends last time, we used to kaw teem to tipu the dicipline teachers, lol

my class mate,  6M

shit la, i miss KL.

Australia

yes indeed, i just watched it, i know dah ketinggalan zaman, tapi my prob la kan, well, at the beginning it was funny tho, ending dier agak sedeh la tsk tsk, anywayyy, it was hot, damn hot

Amazed by muslims

i decided to pray at the mosque today, since its friday, hah shup up, sebab aku selalu ponteng, so before i was peforming ablution, i removed my nautica watch, which is around 1.5k? haha nak jugak sebuttt,

anyway, after that, i went into the praying hall and sembang2 ngan zariq, then i realised, MY WATCH WAS GONE, and i tried to search it, to no avail, taik cicak plak yg aku jumper,

anyway , i was like, this is it, lepas nieh aku nak ponteng sampai mati and stuff la kan, tenson kot, and when after the khutbah, they pray for something, i pray for my watch, and i keep imagining, someone return it to me, 

zariq plak bangang tunjuk fuck kat budak kecik, aku dah cam aper la masalah ko zariq, physco!

anyway, i was like really disappointed, 

just when i was in great chafe, at the end of the pray, the announced who had lost a watch, please come to the 'bilik kiblat' well, i waste no time :D

and yeay! boy i was happy, im sooo going to the mosque next week ;)

Problems, they dont seem want to go away do they?

hah yes.

on after another, 

as presistant they are, they make us mature more in dealing with things.

regardless,

if ur rich,

poor,

healthy,

sick,

alone,

together,

u would always, encounter with problems,

whether its big or small,

me?

im in a pinch right now,

with everything seems to clutch me in,

i feel so small and unworthy of the world's attention.

because i know, some people are having it worst.

new song

Sometimes I'm happy, sometimes I'm sad. Sometimes I feel good, sometimes it's bad. But when I am happy, and I'm holding your hand, nothing can stop me, not the sea or the sand. But when I am sad, and my head's in a whirl, I just can't get happy, not for diamonds or peals.

Teachers Day

awww, happy teachers day!

to all of my teachers, who most probably wont be reading this. thank you :D

funny ads!

it was 8 30, and i was dancing to the radio and it went commercial. it was something like this, noted that i said something, so its not as it is.

mum: have u eaten son? ( sound curious)

son : yes. ( reply in a very deep voice)

mum where? ( sound worried)

son : KFC  X combo meal. ( trying to control his deep voice)

mum : what has KFC X combo meal done to your voice? ( sound really2 worried)

son : i am....WOLVERINE ( trying to sound convicing)

mum : (angry) WOLVERINE MY FOOT!!! now help me with the dishes.

son: but.. but.. im wolverine ( sound pathehic)

mum: (really2 angry) AND IM THE HOUSE MINISTER, NOW HELP ME WITH THE DISHES!

hahahah this fucking cracks me up!

princess diaries and passion for food, relation? none.

hhahh, i watched princess diaries yesterday, at 12 kot, disney channel la obviously, heh, kinda reminds me of my happy childhood, and suddenly i felt like i was missing something, the happiness i lost. hahhh, babi, nak nangis, hahahha bodoh la

i want to be the used to be care-free-i-dont-give-a-fuck-kid. ahhhhh alaa sedeyh, kakak dont u wish the same? the swimming pool where we rules, a community where we can do what we want because we were the general's children? our own drivers? our own 'private' heli and jets? our first class treatment where ever we went? even to other countries, and everyone put their hypocrits face and treat us like royals? ahhhh now i feel so poor! hahah, not funny =((

ouh ouh, and horse riding! alaaa sedeyh! RAWANG X DE HORSE CLUB, BODOH! babi!

urgh.

anyway,

i used to have this passion for food, like seriosuly, i used to go everywhere testing food, and even cooking alot! but its not there anymore, well u see, i used to cook for this someone, and now that someone is not in my life anymore, aiceh ceh, emo la plak, hahha anyway, since then i lost my interest in cooking! arrrr

ps: i need to be happy jolly bean again =(

again? ish ish

yeay, slept at 4 yesterday, chatted  with kakak la sebabnyer, hahah and the outcome is? skipping school again, argghh, exam is tomorrow and i am pretty much dead, im serious 0.0.

anyway, woke up at 11, and had a very interesting conversation with my niece.

me : dina, dina buat aper jer hari nieh?

dina : urmm dina, kolek hidung jerrr.( with her ever sincere looks)

hahah mmg aku x leh nak gelak lagi la kan,

seeing me laugh she said it again and again and again, until i said:

me: dina nie exaggerating la 

dina: dina kolekk hidunngg laaa.

me: exaggerating tahu?

dina : ( her innocent cute blur face with her small fingers up in her nose, and slowly pull it out.)

chu( refers to the youngest child in the family; me) x nak pergi tuition, chu nak makan.

me: hahhhh, a ah, jom makan,

dina: eeeee birds! nanti dier gigit! lari2 !!!! ( run towards to the dining room)

hahha awww, shes like that, suke cakap bende random, she would be 3 in August! weee

Innocent survey? okee i'll give it a try

Start with 100% and subtract 1% for everything that you've done.Then post as you're __% innocent.

01. Smoked
02. Drank alcohol.
03. Cried when someone died.
04. Been drunk.
05. Had sex.
06. Been to a concert.
07. Gotten/given a hand job.
08. Been verbally/sexually harassed.
09. Flirted
10. Verbally/sexually harassed somebody.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 91%

11. Felt someone up and/or been felt up.
12. Laughed so hard something came out of your nose.
13. Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend before.
14. Been cheated on by a boyfriend/girlfriend.
15. Been to prom.
16. Cried at school.
17. Gotten lost in a Wal-Mart or a department store.
18. Went streaking.
19. Given or received a lap dance.
20. Had someone of the opposite sex in your room.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 84%

21. Had someone of the opposite sex sleep over.
22. Slept over at someone of the opposite sex's house.
23. Kissed a stranger.
24. Hugged a stranger
25. Went scuba diving.
26. Driven a car.
27. Gotten an x-ray.
28. Hit by a car.
29. Had a party.
30. Done drugs.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 76%

31. Played strip poker/darts/pool.
32. Got paid to strip for someone.
33. Run away from home.
34. Broken a bone.
35. Eaten sushi.
36. Bought porn.
37. Watched porn.
38. Made porn.
39. Made beans.
40. Been in love.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 69%

41. French kissed.
42. Laughed so hard you cried.
43. Cried yourself to sleep
44. Laughed yourself to sleep.
45. Stabbed yourself.
46. Shot a gun.
47. Trash talked someone and then acted like their best friend the next day.
48. Been online for 9 consecutive hours.
49. Watched TV for 9 consecutive hours.
50. Watched an animal die.
PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 59%

51. Watched a person die.
52. Kissed somewhere with at least 1 person present.
53. Pranked somebody.
54. Put somebody in the hospital.
55. Snuck into someone's room and/or your own room after being out.
56. Made spicy beans.
57. Dressed punk.
58. Dressed Goth.
59. Dressed preppy.
60. Been to a motocross race.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 55%

61. Avoided somebody.
62. Been stalked.
63. Stalked someone.
64. Met a celebrity.
65. Played an instrument.
66. Ridden a horse.
67. Cut yourself.
68. Bungee jumped.
69. Ding dong ditched somebody.
70. Been to a wild party.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 48%

71. Been caught stealing something.
72. Kicked/punched a guy in the balls.
73. Stolen a boyfriend/girlfriend from a friend.
74. Gone out with your friend's crush.
75. Got arrested.
76. Been pregnant.
77. Babysat.
78. Been to another country.
79. Started your house on fire.
80. Had an encounter with a ghost.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR:43%

81. Donated your hair to cancer patients.
82. Been asked out by someone that you never thought you'd be asked out by.
83. Cried over a member of the opposite sex.
84. Had a boyfriend/girlfriend for over 2 months.
85. Sat on your butt all day.
86. Ate a whole carton of ice cream all by yourself.
87. Had a job.
88. Gotten cut from a sports team.
89. Been called a whore.
90. Danced like a whore.

PERCENTAGE SO FAR: 36%

91. Been mistaken for a celebrity.
92. Been in a car accident.
93. Been told you have beautiful eyes.
94. Been told you have beautiful hair.
95. Raped somebody.
96. Danced in the rain.
97. Been rejected.
98. Left a restaurant without paying.
99. Punched someone/slapped someone in the face.
100. Been raped.

TOTAL PERCENTAGE : 27%

heyyy, im actually quite innocent kot :D

i write like a 12 year old

i noticed that, my writings are quite immature, possibly lack of ready? probably so.

i spent my nights reading articles after another, it seems like my effort of thriving for better writings is just simply nothing but dissipation.

out of frustration, wasting my time on reading when im suppose to be practicing add math, i lounged myself on the bed, and watch anime,

exam is in 2 days, wish me luck, i really need it.

i cry behind my smiles

i have been wating for your call since last year. eagerly checking my cell now and then, and still forced to do so. 

my last real smile when i was with you.

but its pointless isn't it?you are never coming back, its merely impossible.

ps: i lied, i actually didnt care at all. then again, you know whether im lying or not kan?

i still love you actually.

supposely a new song

be warned, its addictive

new baby

yesterday night, before going to tuition, i heard a kitten's cry, but ignore it. 

and this morning, i heard it again, and search all around. but to no avail there wasnt any kitten

and at 4 in the afternoon, before going to tuition i heard it again, now, i must be real, and i searched high and low, under the hot sun! shehs global warming is getting worse these days, and next to a vase which is on a small balcany designed for small vasses on the wall surrounding the house compound, curled a timid dirty tabby orange kitten with white spots. and i tried to take her, but she dashed under the car.

already wasting a lot of time, i decided to go to tuition first. and decided to try to get the kitten afterwards, and i did, after a lot or miaowing and stalking and waiting and sweating.

and i feed her, bath her, and now she is in the washing room sleeping perhaps, wait, gonna check on her! bb muack

Thursday

what is up with thursday and sickness these days?

yup, i skipped school again today, determined to study, since mid term is like 4 days away, turned out that me, yes , i slept till 1 in the afternoon! 

study la sangat.

so yeah, 3pm and i want to study add math, wish me luck

gains and loses

i tired of this.

next time something is up do tell me. nie cam aper jer. penat la aku nak layan

everything began as one

hah, indeed what am i going to talk about has nothing to do with the title, well, yeah, its my blog, so i can what ever i want la kan?

heh

im tired, of figuring things out. seriously! i wish , i could just lie, on a super king size bed with silk mattress and comfy comforter, on a grassy field, with small streams running, and the sky is blue and wind is soothing. wow, i can just lay forever.

hah, omg i miss europe! well more like i actually miss my childhood, yes my relaxing yet lonely childhood, i need a holiday a real one, just me and myself, on a hill somewhere in europe. with red foxes playing with me. awww! alaa fuck la! moments over! babi.

aku rase x tenteram hati ouh, maybe sebab my cat just died kot, ntah la fuck u. 

this is addictive

I'm tired of:
- you, hah no la kidding, im tired of *tut*. 

I am listening to:
- my own farting

Maybe I should:
- kill myself, eh no, have sex!.

I wish:
- my father is a fucking millionaire

I have lost my respect for:
- orang badget alim

Someday:
- i will not get married, hakhak. 

I will always remember:
- my pain.

Love:
- is Umar and Mimi

MySpace is:
not my space

Today:
tiring, im exhausted like hell, maybe im dying! NO 

Tomorrow:
i dont want to see that face again

Party:
is better with orgies


QUESTIONS:
Is your cell phone beside you?
nope its in my arse, bodoh

Are you wearing pyjamas?
- pukul 6 petang pyjamas aper?

Are you mad?
- tired of it

Are you upset?
- boleh kate la

Last phone call?
- fendy mamak

Last time you cried?
- huh? soalan babi aper nieh?

List 2 favourite colours:
- ur anus

THIS MONTH HAVE YOU:
Made a new friend?
berjuta, haha chewahh, idk, aku x ingat kot, ko ingat aku x de life nak ingat saper aku kenal?

Fallen out of love?
- fallen and tripped, layed and never woke up.

Laughed until you almost cried?
- everytime! ala rindu kakak!

Met someone who changed your life?
- =|

Have you found out who your true friends and best friends were?
- aqila! eh no shes my sister, well idk, who cares! betray me please? hahah see if i care la kan

Wallpaper on your cell phone?
- my parrots

What's the most interesting thing that happened to you today?
- huh, theres nothing interesting on sundays bodoh

What's your favourite number?
-6 

What is your current mood?
- tired la

Last people you hung out with?
- kakak ! ;(

What colour shirt are you wearing?
- red

Who’s car were you in last?
- my brother's

If you could have one thing right now what would it be?
- a million dollar

When is your birthday?
- 14/9

How do you feel about your hair right now?
- =|

How is your life?
- trying to make it happy

When is the last time you held hands with someone?
- 3 months ago.....?

You wake up as the opposite gender.​.​.​what'​s the one thing you do?
- HOMG! HAKHAKHAKAHKAHAK! BERDEPOH!

Who did you last hug?
- my cat

Have you ever crawled through a window?
- hah yeaahhh

Where is your mom?
- tgh tending her orchids

Morning or night person?
both

What is the last movie you watched?
ouh anime aper ntah

Any cool scars?
i hate them =(

Things about the opposite sex that you first notice?
- potential shopping buddies baby

Who's your favourite person to drunk dial?
- HAKHAKHAKHAK, omg IDK

Would you ever dye your hair red?
- hahha ewww, only if im super fair, which im not

Last text says
- i got some fucking bonus point

Merisik la kot

heh, kakak aku merisik, well

lets just say..

aku penat cam sial,

god, like i have to serve people.

U KNOW HOW MUCH I HATE THAT, im wayy to much of a plate-brought kid, so yeah, i dont agree to the terms where i have to serve people, but i did it anyway, for the sake of my sister la pun kot, klau x , jangan harap. cheh.

tired like fuck, aku tido cam beruang hibernate.

got some pictures, tu pun aku ngan dina, heh,

I HATE SERVING PEOPLE!

ps : i need more money. dad please be a fucking millionaire and make me happy =)